Preface

I tell my own story, undisguised and true, how, being in my mid-thirties, I met a much younger man, who was ready to share his past as a male prostitute with me so he could find a way into a ‘descent’ life. But he only managed to push me into chaos, that I couldn’t have possibly believed to exist. I was driven beyond the border of reason, sent from the garden of Eden into the bonfire of hell. I fought and surrendered, lost and gained anew.